my patience was tested with this panning technique, i find it hard to perfect.

you can view my first droplet shot here.

Turning a new leaf in life

I underwent a major surgery recently, abdominal hysterectomy or removal of womb. You see, i had fibroid which was diagnosed 7 years ago while i was pregnant with my only child, Ysabelle. Now, to say i menopaused at the prime of my life - i am 42 - is partly true. I said partly as i still have my right ovary intact to produce hormones which will see me through the years - hopefully- until i reach the time when my body goes into natural menopause phase.

One might wonder, why abdominal instead of a less traumatic vaginal hysterectomy or more so the less invasive laparoscopic subtotal hysterectomy. Well, my fibroid has grown so big over the years that the only route it can be taken out is through an abdominal incision. I knew 7 years ago that this day will come. When i had my last ultra sound and found out how big it has grown i knew the only option left for me, surgery. I spoke about it to the hubby and explained about not having the opportunity to have another child again and the possibility of me going through an early menopause in case my two ovaries are not healthy enough to be preserved - he wants another one but it isn't going to be so. It is consoling to know that at least one ovary- the right one - is good enough to stand surgical scrutiny. In a way, talking about it with the hubby before my surgeon even broached the verdict helps. It kinda prepared me mentally, emotionally and physically when the time has come and my surgeon told me what is going to happen. He wants to give me a couple of days to think things over before i commit myself to go under the knife. I don't need time to think about it, the hubby and i were on it for days. I said i want it done and over with and turn a new leaf in my life. A time when i do not have to worry about monthly visitor - though welcome, is undoubtedly being dreaded. Now, its Hakuna Matata - a life free of worries.

I sometimes says ignorance is a bliss but not today, i find knowledge comforting. Being a theatre/ operating room nurse gives me an edge, a big leeway, to know what is about to happen - any complication that may arise, what the expectations are from the moment i stepped into the hospital until i go home. Heck! i even know what will be done to me the moment the knife cuts my skin. Its a good thing though i am asleep or i may just tell them which instrument is needed next...LOL!

you can view my first ever smoke shot here.

lulworth cove was also my entry last week but i thought that one didn't do justice to the grandness of this place.

i think this photo is better overall, you can view my previous entry here.

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