One might wonder, why abdominal instead of a less traumatic vaginal hysterectomy or more so the less invasive laparoscopic subtotal hysterectomy. Well, my fibroid has grown so big over the years that the only route it can be taken out is through an abdominal incision. I knew 7 years ago that this day will come. When i had my last ultra sound and found out how big it has grown i knew the only option left for me, surgery. I spoke about it to the hubby and explained about not having the opportunity to have another child again and the possibility of me going through an early menopause in case my two ovaries are not healthy enough to be preserved - he wants another one but it isn't going to be so. It is consoling to know that at least one ovary- the right one - is good enough to stand surgical scrutiny. In a way, talking about it with the hubby before my surgeon even broached the verdict helps. It kinda prepared me mentally, emotionally and physically when the time has come and my surgeon told me what is going to happen. He wants to give me a couple of days to think things over before i commit myself to go under the knife. I don't need time to think about it, the hubby and i were on it for days. I said i want it done and over with and turn a new leaf in my life. A time when i do not have to worry about monthly visitor - though welcome, is undoubtedly being dreaded. Now, its Hakuna Matata - a life free of worries.
I sometimes says ignorance is a bliss but not today, i find knowledge comforting. Being a theatre/ operating room nurse gives me an edge, a big leeway, to know what is about to happen - any complication that may arise, what the expectations are from the moment i stepped into the hospital until i go home. Heck! i even know what will be done to me the moment the knife cuts my skin. Its a good thing though i am asleep or i may just tell them which instrument is needed next...LOL!